...I know when it's time to blog here again because I'm usually reading a ton of my old blog posts. I really would like to come back to this thing full time but I can't commit to anything right now.

I got a lot on my mind. That's really nothing new as I have always embraced the clutter in my head. I feel quite happy with a lot on my mind. It keeps me from feeling a sense of worthlessness or a lack of accomplishment. If I have nothing on my mind, what purpose do I serve?

I've probably been working legally for about 17 years and 15 of those years I've made my money in the journalism industry. Mostly newspapers and then to more specialized publication and now through wires and online media as an "independent contractor". But over the next seven days it will be judgment time in my career. Maybe things will break right and I'll continue to do what I love with some financial stability or it's time to move on. It's a difficult move because I've always tried to be loyal to the business even when the business (or maybe the people behind the business) proved itself (or themselves) to be a fraud to the people that fought so hard to protect it.

The jobs, while similar in description, couldn't be much different. One company wants to see how far I am willing to go to work for them. Will I pay my own travel for an interview? Will I do it quickly so I miss the two-week "cheaper" flight window? Will I spend a year working for a subsidiary without the good company benefits? The other company is probably considered to be at least part of the industry standard but they move at a speed that is generously described as slow. So at this point I leave it to fate. Either I'm still going to be here or I won't. Nothing more or less. If it doesn't work I'll move on. I can move on. Five years ago I wouldn't have been able to, now I could do it without blinking. It's time for bed

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